With me in a dark corner,
Captured in such a silence
with past always in front between me and the future I will never get to,
Traces of the past alway lead to the point of no return
This bobble I live in makes me so vulnerable
as if captured by aliens!
Once I took all courage I could find to plant you and me,
into a new being to grow in me by turning to a silk cocoon
I could have been the mother of a butterfly,
responsible for hurricanes in another part of the world
My weak roots couldn't stand the winds of ancient orders
Pity, these broken wings exiled me in a frozen land
I did walk with you in my mind and all the memories locked in my soul
Walked with hostages of faith,
with eyes blind of tears that I dropped for return journey
It’s not my color or my faith darling I lost them both
Or all those tears that were suppose to light the way back that were gone
I’ve learned that emptiness of the hearts aches more
Days with constant memories and absent being turned to nights full of dreams
Books were full of words about the love that would hold the happiness tight and safe,
I read them all that’s why my heart is still urged to learn swimming
Past the time and the place into skies
This distance is not the object between me and happiness
I do know how to rush into your arms to witness that smile with a dot
I know how to be whole again
I could ride the waves and sail back to the time
It’s the tide of freedom I am waiting for
To sail me back safe and whole,
There is no blood in that tide
I wonder how they could lie about this in school.
What was that cold, gray, violent thing they introduced as freedom?
That thing could not save anyone but Love does!
One must be born free to stay out of reach for traditions
Do you remember my birth in that dungeon they built for my mother?
Forced orders was my first wrapper,
No wonder courage seemed so scary in those days, but I am sure my soul left the place
But not soon enough to change all that was wrong for us, or even try to
Not as if it ever would make any sense to anyone
And I certainly would be stopped and defeated all the same
But I would have a chance to earn the king’s respect just for trying all that
And maybe, he would send out the prince to ride out and save me!