They go into deep winter sleep

every year I mean the flowers they get into their long rest for winter to pop up fresh and shinny in spring. Just imagine if humans could do the same, rest for winter to be productive and active in the spring. This will remain as a desire at least as long as I live in this frozen country. Although Sweden is not as frozen as it used to be thanks to global warming and stupid politicians, but let's face it no one gets younger, I have at least learned about my limitations. I know I don't feel good in winter and it doesn't get better. 28 years ago I was looking forward to this day, in my mind 28 years would be long enough for anyone even me to adjust. What I never took into account was the age or Thyroid disorder. I have both to blame and the fact that I was not born to live in a country as cold as Sweden.

How was life hundred years ago in this part of the world one might wonder? to tell you the truth I have no idea and unfortunately I have no past generation to ask them either. You have a limited past created by you when you immigrant to another country. There is no continuance in one's life.

Over one night you loose your country, your family and your friends. You loose your past. It’s like a line ends and you’re forced to start it all over by a dot. How in earth one could believe that life is fair. Anyway the disconnection never ends; it is there no matter how hard you try to ignore it. It creates a missing part, first in your life than in your soul. Deep inside you know what's missing but you don't talk about it. It just pops up every now and then when you're so confused or bothered by something. Like me today so upset with winter...............