I wanted to tell about this another person living in me. I never mentioned this before to anyone, about the silent, distant invisible being, so present in me. Always in the background, this is the best part of me if you ask me. The invisible me, she keeps me from falling, keeping from losing. Not as if I am a kind of person always running for wining situation. My gains are little, unregistered and mostly spiritual.
It is as a separate life was going on somewhere with no connection to what life does to me. It never grows old, it’s never mature it’s not much of a child in me, yet innocent and pure but believe me much wiser than I ever could be.
This is the part helping me in relation with other people; it makes things easy so to say.
In years I looked at it as someone else living in me, luckier than me. As a third person doing everything much better than me, living my life much more than me. I wished we could switch place.
It was only a couple years ago I found out about the true identity of this person. It is me as I wanted to be. You see, there is a person you want to be, there is another person living your life. And there is one other person you present to others as you, when you describe yourself.
Could you believe that this was the real part of me for years without me knowing it. It was like a revelation to me, as if I set her free, to help me out with difficult situations. I didn’t have to do what I was able to do, but what I wished to do. After a while it was even difficult for me to separate us. I don’t think other people could see the difference ever.
I think I am ready to talk about it now, perhaps with my life partner to begin with. His is my angel with no difficulty to make sense of me. His existance in my life had alot to do with the new me or perhaps the appearance of old hidden part of me.
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